She thought it was curiosity
Then she thought it was interest
Then she realized it was something more
Then she understood that there was someone else in his life
She rubbished it all as a mere crush
And even though she felt that unexplainable feeling whenever he was around
Even though her mind couldn’t seem to focus on anything else
She thought it would go away
She told herself it would eventually come to pass as usual
But then there she is; and there they are
She struggles everyday
She does everything to stay out of the way
She fights herself; she fights the world
She struggles to keep herself away
But she is losing that battle
She is bitterly losing the battle to love
How could this be love, Oh Lord!
So painful, so frustrating
How can love hurt so much?
How can this be love
If it hurts instead of healing
She wakes up every morning
Thinking it’s finally over
But it all remains the same
With the exception of the feeling that keeps growing
She fights, She struggles, She prays everyday
How frustrating it is to be in love with the wrong person
She hates him because she wants him so badly
She hates him because he takes her to heaven and then to hell
She hates him because she is losing the freaking battle
It is so unfair
The more he hurts her, the more she loves him
She feels like she is losing her mind
Oh Lord, How can this be love
If it hurts so freaking bad?
Of what use is this love
If it comes with no honour, no guarantee
Of what use is this love if he is never there when she needs him?
And only shows up when it is convenient for him?
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